A Project Beyond My Control, In The Hands Of God

So as most you know we are under construction and creating the studio of our dreams. So many life lessons to be learned in building a space of your own, so many questions come to the surface, you really have to get clear on what it is that you want to offer and how it is that you want to serve. I have learned so much in this process, the building of this space, is the vision of not just mine, not just mine and Kanani's, not even just our vision accompanied by the vision of the people directly involved, but something much bigger.

It becomes evident with every conversation, that this is the product of the community that already exists and is waiting for us, a product of what the Universe has in store for all of us collectively. Because our intention is to serve the highest purpose of yoga, the highest has a direct hand in each and every step of the way. There is support and love so deep that it amazes me with each passing day and makes this whole process magical at the least.

Of course a construction project is a construction project as we all know...forever changing views, requests, estimates, time schedules, all the tangible evidence of construction. There is plenty of opportunity for stress and conflict, and it does take work to keep the vision clear. But I am amazed at how I've been able to watch this process unfold without feeling the incredible amount of stress and frustration that would seem to go hand in hand with this type of project. I have been contemplating this studio, this vision, this project and all it's magic every day for over three months now.

It is clear to me that the Universe is at play, and the studio that is meant to be, is unfolding and becoming everyday. Sometimes it almost feels like it's out of my own hands, and a Grand Play for me to sit back and watch with eyes of wonder. Yes we are making huge decisions, having practical business like conversations, engaging in contracts and agreements of the real world, but there is something other worldly about this particular project. I liken it to the creation of my family, my children, who just showed up when they were to be, as they were to be, the creation of Loka Studios has expanded my family and has added so much more to all of us, already without even officially opening the doors.

I can hardly do this Grace filled experience justice with words, but just as a building unfolds and a studio and student body collectively continues to come together and create itself, I suspect so will my posts and words on the subject. Somehow my meaning will come across, because somehow this project continues to come together in tangible ways that I can describe only as miraculously.

I am often asked how it is that I am able to do this, why do I not fret, why do I not fear, why do I not plan for the worst. My answer goes something like this, I do not fear, because there is nothing to fear, I do not fret because I am grateful and I do not plan for the worst because the best is exactly what's going to happen. And how can I do this? Well, I can do this because I am not doing this alone, not by any definition of the word. I am astounded by the support of people, of Grace, of the Universe. It is amazing to be in the flow of this creation of community, to be so in sync with a partner on a level where conversation seems like a dejavu, because everything that comes up, is something that has already been discussed and confirmed out in space somewhere and the actual conversation is just a confirmation of something we already both somehow know.

I hope my words convey at least a little bit of the magic of my experience. I learned how to open to Grace, how to flow with what is, and I am now learning how powerful that truly is; it's almost as if, that is all one really has to do and then everything else falls into place, the motivation to move comes without asking and the decisions make themselves. There is nothing to fret, nothing to fear and nothing to hold one back from living the life of true dharma. I would usually expect to be thinking something like, "I wish I knew this 30 years ago," but I don't I'm just glad I know this now, that I am here and that this beautiful creation is a direct reflection of my intentions and my truest self. I am not hopeful, I am already grateful for we have already achieved our success, we are now just putting actions behind the dreams we have laid at the hands of the Universe.

I am grateful to all of you I know who are reading this now, who will read this in the future, who already knew this before the words were spoken, and for every little step of the way, which I now know started before I was even aware that the path was being carved out. What I am contemplating now, is when did this begin, I have a feeling it began before I can comprehend. What a Trip!?!

Towing the Line

Contemplations on Life and tomorrows theme...I don't know why the phrase towing the line comes to mind when I think of my recent experience of coming back to center, finding my physical and meta-physical mid-line. I recently did a few training one in Austin with my teacher Christina Sell and Amy Ipololliti and then an online teacher training course with Amy this month. When I learned that John Friend would be in Miami on his Dancing with the Divine Tour, teaching Therapeutics and advance intensives, I started to scramble for how am I going to get there, I gotta go.

Don't get me wrong being in Miami right now would be nice did I mention KD is there too? Anyways, when I stopped looking at the outside world, the "reality" of time and space and I looked inside, I realized that for ME, right now, my work is here in Texas towing the line as Mom, Teacher and Student. is the boundaries from which I can expand best from, at least for now.

I have plenty of work to do here in Texas, a local training in Fletcher Floorwork this past weekend, a long weekend in California for Mom's birthday in March and maybe a repeat of immersion weekend one in Austin with Christina, just for fun. There are plenty of other times and places for me to get John's teachings this year, there is no rush, and when I look to my center the boundaries for my personal expansion as teacher and student become clear and the scrambling and stress just falls away. The mid-line a wonderful place to find and re-find time and time again.

When we know our center, we know our boundaries, we can then expand our practice in the highest way by being true to our selves, which lends itself to our highest calling of service. Towing the line for the kids, the students, and the dogs who need homes.

This is posted as a discussion on my public profile, mostly because I wanted to see what a discussion looked was :)